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Hello guys❤️in this wellness blog post, I write about Binge Eating, what it is, and a period of my life, regarding this topic.

Trigger warning: this article contains also tough, difficult moments in my life. If you are going through a difficult period in your life, you are struggling with your own mental-health issues, this article may be challenging to read. However, this blog post has also motivational tips, content. So, it’s totally up to you, and to no one else! :)❤️❤️

The meaning of binge eating (BED)

Binge eating disorder (BED), is a recognized mental health condition which involves consuming a large amount of food in a short period of time, often feeling a lack of control during an episode. Eating large quantities of food can often lead to feelings of guilt, shame and distress.

During an episode, the individual suffering from this disorder could probably also eat in secret, when no one else sees due to guilt, embarrassment, consuming also large quantities of food despite not feeling physically hungry and eating quickly.

Binge eating can coexist with other mental health disorders, such as anxiety and depression.

Once again, I am not a professional in this area, but a patient. If you are someone who has problems with eating too much, I would recommend you to seek help.❤️

My story❤️

I have no binge eating disorder, but I’ve gone through a very difficult period of my life where eating was one of my biggest comforts and a way to suppress my immense sadness.

At the beginning of the year 2023, I stopped modeling with agencies, because I felt too much pressure upon me and I was no longer comfortable in my own skin.

The last agency, requested me to become very fit, also for being able to do fashion shows. I did the best I could, but after months of training, I could literally not see any kind of results and even if this agency approved, I was not content with my own self, furthermore I started to have lots of anxiety and feelings of hopelessness.

Depression and binge eating

When I stopped modeling, I became too frightened of what would come next. My world started to fall apart as the days went by, feeling more and more unhappy with myself, untill I fell into a serious, deep depression.

Managing my inner distress, by eating more and more.

What made me get out of bed in the mornings were the rich breakfasts I prepared. I ate many times a mix of salty and sweet such as three-two yoghurts with cereals, nuts followed by like six buscuits, two sandwiches accompanied with a big cup of milk coffee. After circa an hour from breakfast, I felt the need to eat again. Many times I drank a second milk coffee together with (ex.) more biscuits, bread with butter.

If I baked something or my mom did, I would eat a lot of it. One time mom and I baked Swedish cardamom and cinnamon rolls. Once baked, instead of two pastries, I ate three more when my mom did not see it.

I felt hungry practically all the time and when it was time for sleep, I almost immediately went to bed without caring to digest the food eaten during dinner, I just wanted to get over the day and sleep and forget about all my inner struggles.

At the end, I gained almost ten kilos.

Mindfulness, the core to my mental wellbeing❤️

In a situation of complete sadness and darkness, besides from two times a week of therapy and a change of medication, I started slowly living in a more mindful, healthier way.

I began enjoying eating slowly and with awareness, sipping my tea while listening, for instance, to an audio book, doing meditation and breathing exercises while focusing my attention on being calm and centered. So, I started also to take up different kind of hobbies instead of thinking to eat all the time.

Through time, I noticed that I started to eat better, to loose the excess of weight and to feel happier with my own self❤️❤️.

Some tips along the way❤️:

• Psychotherapy and medication: I think it’s so important to reach out for help, especially if you are not feeling good at all. If necessary, medication can also be very helpful during your recovery journey. Remember, there is no shame in asking for help❤️.

• Mindfulness: living in a mindful way can be challenging, especially at the beginning, but it can be truly worth to try at least 🙂 I’ve done a lot of practice and I am still learning, but I’m seeing more and more how impactful it is for me living in the moment❤️.

• Self-love: learning to practice self-love could be helpful also during your recovery journey. It allows you to be more gentle, kind towards yourself, set healthy boundaries and also to accept yourself as the way you are❤️.

Much Love and Lightness ❤️✨

Sofia Lena😊

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